struggle against the soul

Not a good day for sofi today.i went to pharmacy to check on my glucose level.devastated news.at least for me..it's higher than i expected.i dont know why but it just hits me.i cried river once i got in the car.maybe because im currently on my better health journey.I just thought that the glucose level was better..so sad.im so sad and dissapointed as well at myself. nevertheless I want to stay positive .I have to.i need to stay strong and believe in my dear self.that I can do this.that I will bear this journey no matter how hard it will be. so just a bit throwback to LoveMyselfRun2017 which was held last weekend.i took part in 3km run.alhamdulillah to my suprise,my performance that day was way better than i thought.huhu.started a bit rough.need to catch my breath few times.but then i manage to run MORE than I walk.so well done sofi.do this for the sake of allah,for the sake if your health.for better quality of life.your health is amanah from allah..wake up sofi!

rekod baru. berjaya bertahan selama 16 hari. bertahan utk apa?bertahan utk jaga makan,kawal selera makan dan cuba exercise regularly hari2. one thiing for sure, jgn timbang selalu. nnt frust and demotivate. jujurnya mcm x turun pun kg aku. tp aku ttp rasa bangga dgn diri sendiri. sbb aku agak berjaya lah menahan nafsu selera yg membuak, cuba kawal otak. it's all about your mind..nk melawan kimia dlm otak yg dh biasa makan banyak. nk melawan nafsu makan lebih. masyaallah. dlm 16 hari ni juga aku bljr utk kuasai fikiran. stick to my BIG WHY, bljr sabar, step by step, bljr percaya kebolehan aku mengawal fikiran, bljr utk fhm bhw ini satu cbrn yg aku kena lalui jugak no matter what. wpun basically kg taklah turun pun, aku tetap akan kata this 16 days adlh blessing and im proud of myself. semoga terus bersabar

Satu kesan jelas yg aku rasa bila buat exercise ni adlh sakit pinggang dan belakang berkurang.kdg tak sakit pun. sblm ni mmg aku mudah sgt rasa sakit ni. espc bila nk bangun dr duduk or berdiri lama. almaklum, pinggang x larat dah nak tanggung berat badan. Inilah satu reason why aku kne exercise. why kita semua kena exercise. nak jadi lbh sihat adlh BIG WHY aku. mula dgn simple exercise yg sesuai dgn kemampuan..small steps, big leap.hrpnya lah huhu. bila aku fikir2 blk, badan kt ni aset terbesar utk kita jaga. tp lbh sedekad aku tak jaga betul2 amanah allah. need to start somewhere.wpun susah. sesiapa yg terbaca ni, tolglah doakan aku, wish me luck 

mencecah umur 30 tahun alhamdulillah allahuakbar dear sofi, semoga terus positif menjalani kehidupan sentiasa bersyukur atas segala nikmat allah swt sentiasa bersangka baik dgn allah swt terus sedar diri dan tak jemu bermuhasabah diri, jadi anak yg lbh baik, kakak & adik yg lebih baik, kakak/mak usrah yg lbh baik, sahabat yg lbh baik, MANUSIA yg lbh baik.. upgrade diri, improve diri, terus eager explore life, skills, ilmu. sentiasa bersyukur atas segala nikmat allah swt dan terus diberi hidayah dan kekuatan utk terus tsabat di jln dkwh dan jamaah, jln kebaikan dan kebajikan. please guide and protect me ya allah.. (13:11)

Bukan mudah nak melepaskan kebiasaan, lingkungan yg dikenali, suasana yg berulang, perasaan yg sama. Sedih rasa hati melihat mereka. i will miss you a lot.